《 Listen Up! 》

some are concerned about me not posting often enough, so here is another one for you.

after several failed attempts to post something on my blog, i figured that with the bad internet connection and my laziness, there's an idea of words making things worse. maybe i got over it and don't give a shit anymore. horray! good for me!

my wandering around is almost coming to an end, and if there's anything that's changed about me is that i don't get pushed around as much now. being able to snap at people while having all the good intentions is a great feeling. i kept on thinking these days that everyone moans about things, can everyone be so hardly done by all the time? so who's at fault and who's not? i feel like people push me around all the time, so do i think im hardly done by as well?

one thing that definitely didnt change from coming to england is that i'm still so freaking confused! i mean, fuck off! this is not suppose to be happening! i came with a bunch of questions hoping to get answers and ended up with even more.

will i miss it here? as much as i dun want to admit it, i will. life's all different now that i know there's a different life that i once lived far far away from home. it's weird knowing that i could possibly have another life in another country and still be ok.

i can see myself calling anthea and talk ages about how we lived here in oxford. things about work, people at work, how much we miss some of the people at work, about our house, what we do when we go out, places we go, things we have to do around the house, and about how we have to act in the house.

well, still got a month to go, maybe things will change again before i leave. who knows? will let you know if they do. cheers guys. have a good one.